“Everybody knows, everybody knows” repeatedly goes through my mind. “Crazy”, “psycho”, “not all there” are some of the terms I’ve been called when it comes to my mental health. People I thought cared have called me these names or made remarks about “needing help”. I see ... Read more
Is this real?
Is it real? One of the most difficult things I struggle with on a daily basis is trying to figure out what is real and what is my mind twisting into a story only I know as real. After being diagnosed with schizophrenia, I was able to reflect back to childhood, and so ... Read more
Rejection…Navigating Difficult Terrain
Recently I was at my daughter's book report parade at school. A young girl walked with the arm of a woman around her. The little girl had tears running down her face. I did not know why, but I remember feeling like her, afraid to go in front of people, afraid of being ... Read more
My Top 6 Coping Skills
I don't know how many times I click on a title about coping skills only for it to tell me to breath. I am not trying to knock it if it works for people but most of the time my brain tells my body to breath and me trying to slow down my breathing does not work. I even ... Read more
Delusions: Living in Fear of Being Found
Security cameras should require a screening process before someone can buy one. In 2018 I was leaving an abusive relationship which meant my anxiety and depression was already in overdrive. My delusions were in full gear telling me what was going to happen. I would sit ... Read more